Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Do you ever not hit publish?

I have found that sometimes I don't hit publish after writing a post.
Normally it is a post that I have felt compelled to write that is either deep or too real to share.
You know the raw, emotional stuff that a lot of us like to pretend that it doesn't exist.
Other times I write something and then forget about it, oops.

Sometimes when struggling with what to write about I peruse all of those draft blogs.
I read them and wonder why I felt nervous about publishing them in the first place.
Then I chicken out AGAIN and leave them sitting there with the word draft next to it.

Sometimes I envision writing up a blog post forewarning everyone that I am going to publish all of my brain vomit all at once to then be free of it.
Or maybe scheduling them to post at like 3:00 in the morning.

It's not that I have anything scary or secretive in those posts, some of them are just boring nothings and others are the things that just feel really personal.

Here are a list of things that I have either chickened out of writing OR have written and never pushed publish:
Having some postpartum depression after having Abby.
Every time I hear a certain song I think of Emma.
I even wrote a post talking about politics *gasp*

Some posts are silly:
K cutting down a tree in our front yard and it looking like a totem pole.
Going swimsuit shopping for the first time in seven years.

Some of these are just things that I write and forget about.
Some of them though I hold close to my heart and protect, they just feel scary to let go of.

Does anyone else just not hit publish?


Oh, is it just me that does this?


  1. SO not just you! I have many, many posts saved as drafts, and more than I care to admit that I've published, thought twice about (AFTER the fact, of course), and pulled down.


  2. You are so not alone! I often think about starting an anonymous blog for all those posts I am afraid to hit publish on!

  3. I'm the exact same way...I have a ton of posts (for a variety of reasons) which I've never published...Sometimes I don't want to let go of it, sometimes I don't want to burden people with the BS, sometimes I just want to hide and pretend that everything is okay...and sometimes I just wonder if it's all just silly nonsense...

    Alas, I think I would be a lot happier if I just let it go...


  4. I never do this because I don't write about anything deep and personal. I have a private journal for this. Or I run my mouth to my husband or close friend and that's how I get it out.

    Nothing wrong with people who do share their hearts with folks. I just don't. For the most part. I have a couple of times, but I guess I just didn't feel it was too personal to write about.