Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day

I've had 6 miscarriages.
5 of them were win the first trimester and one was in the beginning of the second.
I had a easy pregnancy and delivery with our first, Adison, two years of infertility followed by 4 miscarriages.
We then had our first rainbow baby, Ainsley, followed by two more miscarriages and then had our second rainbow, Abby.

This is us.
This is our reality.
This is the story of our family.
This is what has built our family, what has brought us to the deepest depths of despair and has helped us to feel such gratitude for what we have.
While, at times, it felt like it might break us individually had the opposite effect on our marriage and brought us so very close to one another.
It has shaded every tough moments with having children with the thought of what might not have been.

This experience can be so very isolating, the feeling of being so very alone and so broken that you might shatter.
Here's something I came to realize, you are not alone.
Even if you feel that you are, please know that you are not.
I remember feeling so very lost and unsure and well, terrified.
Please know that I'm here for you, please.
I know the primal need to share, to make sure that others remember you baby(ies).

If you would like to read more about my {our} experiences, start here.

Today, October 15th, is International Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day.
It is a day that we remember all of the tiny ones that were lost through miscarriage, stillbirth, SIDS or death during infancy.
Today we remember.

I was contacted by Count the Kick campaign to help share what they are doing.
By keeping track of your baby's movements you can help prevent late-term complications and stillbirths.
Please check out their facebook page: Count the Kicks 

If you've gone through a pregnancy or infant loss and you would like to share, please do so.
Talking about my losses has helped tremendously.
Please know that I'm praying for you, xo