Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Depression update

I have been meaning to post an update on the depression front.

Things are getting better, a lot better.
I am feeling more and more like "Me" again.
Like the girl up above, the girl who felt joy at an instant.
The first three weeks of taking the medicine was a bit rough.
I felt like I had taken some cold medicine during the day.
Not awful, but still ugh.

My doctor had forewarned me of this, so I knew to expect it.
But expecting it and experiencing it are two different things.

My doctor was right though, at right about the three week mark I was feeling pretty remarkable.
It was as if a whole new world had opened up.
Less stress, anxiety and over all blah-ness.

I had a few days of feeling amazing but still not feeling quite up to snuff yet.
I knew, even before meeting with my doctor again, that my dosage needed to be tweaked a bit.

When I talked with her I told her that I was feeling better, but that if I was taking medicine for my depression I wanted to be feeling better than I was.
She understood and agreed completely.

Dosages were shifted and I am feeling oh so much better.
It's such a huge relief.

I'm happy to be getting this dealt with and to see how much the medicine is helping.
I feel more like myself than I have in a long time and it is spectacular.
K has noticed as well and has commented on how much happier and less stressed I am now.

It makes me wish that I would have noticed/known/done something about it sooner.
Oh well, that's the joy of hindsight, it's in 20/20.
For now though, seeing a brighter future is great.
I know that there will still be ups and downs, that's life, but knowing that I am doing something about it makes the world of a difference.


  1. Oh my lovely, I am so so so glad to hear that you are feeling better and that you're getting back to the place in your life where you deserve to be..It makes my heart swell with joy. I was think about this earlier today and wondering how you were doing..but also didn't want to be a pain and bug you!

    It also makes me question my own life and mind and all of that jazz...just makes me reconsider things.

    Funny, how sometimes the blog topics that are the hardest to write are the ones that do the most for other people.

    Love you long time..keeping staying strong, healthy and happy! Love that you are feeling better! Xoxox

  2. That is great news! I'm a different person on meds and not on meds. I'm not sure I could survive without them. So glad you took that step and are feeling better!

  3. Oh and you're looking amazing in that picture!

  4. Isn't that medicine really a wonderful thing over all? I'm on Celexa and I truly feel its a lifesaver. However,it's coming up on a year since I lost my little sister and I wonder if what I have is enough or if it's just natural grieving.

    Blessings to you on finding the joy in life again!

  5. Beautiful picture! So happy you're feeling better!

  6. I am so glad you saw your doctor! So many people are afraid to do that! I am glad you are feeling better too! You look amazing in that picture...